So Ethan totally just missed me being mean to him. :D He's fine now.

John is starting a new DnD game! Finally I get to use my dice again! They have just been collecting dust all this time and finally... FINALLY!

Anyway, so I'm making a gnome druid. She's adorable! She even gets a pet badger. <3


Also, last aikijutsu I went to throw this one girl who had this stain of red on her shirt. I assumed it was dry and threw her... well, then I turned around Natasha freaked out saying that my hand was covered in blood. So I looked down and sure enough! It twas! Knew it wasn't mine so I went to find the girl. Turned out she had gotten a tattoo and the last person who threw her rubbed off the scab and she was bleeding pretty bad down her front. It was really gross and creepy. I felt like I had blood on me for the rest of the night.

Well, I worked until 1 in the morning but after that I went straight to John's because he was watching Drop Dead Fred. I figured Kit wouldn't even notice I was out later than usual so I didn't think to call her. Then I got a call from Aeriel saying Huff called her saying Kit was freaking out looking for me. I had a missed call from Kit. I got back to the dorm and she was crying and fretting and I felt bad. ;~; But come on, I work for the police and I don't even have to leave the building to go from the police station to my dorm. It's unlikely something happened to me. But it touched me that she worried about me.


Anyway.

Today was so gross. As in rainy and unpleasant gross.

John is sick today so I ran out and brought him a box of kleenex, a pack of popcorn, 2 packs of hot chocolate, a batman pen, 1 comic book, 4 movies, cough drops, and a note that said "<3 Get well soon - Harley"

Then I left it at his door, knocked, and ran. <3

Get well soon, Mistah J!

This week has been pretty alright. I mean, it's had its ups and downs. Here's a quick over-view.

So NO ONE knows what we are doing in Edward's class. Not a single person has gotten a sketch approved to start our project. His project description is so specific and yet every time we come up with something that fits it he shoots us down.

Ceramics is going well though my books are far too heavy to be a teapot. I'm starting to think I should either just have it for decoration or get rid of the handle and spout altogether and have it just be a container of sorts. I'll discuss it with the teacher.

Tuesday was a little depressing. Earlier in the week I had promised Ethan I would stop picking on him. He seemed pretty smug about it but when I did act totally normal and calm around him he seemed hesitant and confused. Well, I saw Ethan later and he said that I was always over at the dorm with him and John. I asked if he didn't want me to come over anymore and he said that John would get angry if he said that. So I was depressed all night. Then, Wednesday when I went over for Doctor Who night he kept staring at me and making random comments when John and I would hold hands or giggle or touch or anything like that. I'm still trying to figure out why Ethan doesn't like me. Here are the theories we have compiled.
+ He's jealous of me and afraid I am taking his best friend away from him
+ He wants a girlfriend and me around his a reminder of what he doesn't have
+ He's gay for John

Last night I went over to Bonnie and Molly's because they were home and bored. Then Tara showed up and it turned into a massive night of GOSSIP! We talked about EVERYTHING since we hadn't seen each other in so long we had to catch each other up. Then Lina got home from work and joined in. So much gossip. So much rage. So much nostalgia. It was most certainly what we all needed. We've decided to try and make it a monthly gathering to let off steam.

Tonight though was AMAZING! John and I watched some True Blood for a while, watched videos on the internet, and fooled around in my room for a while before Ethan called and saved us from boredum. We had been waiting for him so that we could finally get to play Morton's List. It's like quests in RPGs, only in real life. Personally, I found that concept exciting and new! I was all in!

Ethan was MUCH more pleasant tonight. Turns out, he really missed me being mean to him. Maybe all that was to try and get a rise out of me.

Anyway, blessed the dice, read the rules, and rolled for our quest. It was for us to build and obstacle course and run it! Thinking that D Vick is always open, even on weekends, we ran to the third floor and began building an elaborate course with trash cans, benches, rolling chairs, and desks.

I had NO IDEA how out of shape I was. One lap around it and we were all on the floor trying to catch our breath. We ran it once together, once each individually, and then a third time before we picked up. I had the slowest time. I demand a recount!

After that we all went out for ice cream and went back to the dorm to watch Dorkness Rising. That is by far my NEW FAVORITE MOVIE! It had everything a good nerd needed. <3 Indie movies are awesome.

So yeah. I'd say it was an awesome week. :D

So btw, John is such a freakin' sweetie. He totally remembered that Monday is our two month anniversary of when we started dating. And I didn't. I'm the man in the relationship. XD Also, I'm SO much better about holding hands and kissing. :D

John drove me back to the dorm today which was so fun! When we got back to the dorm we went to pick up food at Cayman and went back to John and Ethan's dorm. There we played Rock Band for a few hours until I had to go to work. However, we made plans to watch Doctor Who and Treasure Planet on Wednesday, my day off.

I can't believe they have Conventional Lover on Rock Band!

So work was a pain in the ass because it was the Saints game so there was practically a campus wide riot going on and we had to make sure no one got hurt. Yeah, we won. Big deal. It's quiet hours. Shut the hell up! There is no need for screaming, blaring music, screaming WHO DAT at the top of your lungs and intentionally setting off your car alarm just to make noise.

Also, John got he exact same dollar tree batman Valentine's as me. Mind link. <3

Haha! So I am giving him the same valentine but I drew all kinds of fun Harley/Joker doodles on it.

I love working with Aeriel when it's just the two of us. We just talk about random shit all night. Movies, nerdy things, underwear, dreams, things we hate, boys, insecurities, comic books, ect. Anything we can think of. It's fun. I can almost tell her anything. XD

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

I don't think I've been this excited in a while!

For the past few years I've been trying to find ways, or at least hoping for ways, to find my long lost childhood friend Caroline. She failed a grade when we were in middle school so we lost touch after that and then she moved to a different school so we wrote to each other for a while and she stopped writing. Then I think our moms met at walmart and exchanged numbers and she met me at work for my birthday and that was it.

Well, since I got on facebook I've done a monthly search for her and her sister to see if either of them had gotten an account. Tonight I looked for Christine and found a picture that looked vaguely like her. Hopeful, I friend requested her saying I was Rebecca and if it was Caroline's little sister, I was hoping to catch up. She private messaged me almost immediately with how nice it was to hear from me!

We're still in the process of catching up but they apparently live in Georgia now and Christine is an english major. Caroline is an art major and her mom is doing bus tours. :D

I'm so happy! *bounce* I didn't think I'd ever find them again!

Tuesday, the first day of classes for the semester, was pretty awesome. First class was water aerobics. We didn't get to swim but we will next class and the anticipation was enough for me. I'm all set.

Then was Advanced Ceramics which I think is going to be pretty cool. I told him I wanted to do the whole teapots thing which he was fine with other than the fact that he thinks it's too simple. He was all, "I can make a teapot in a half an hour!" and ignored the fact I kept trying to explain that they were going to be sculptural and highly detailed. I was a little saddened but no matter. Maybe I can make cups to go with them.

Anyway, I found out that cadets get to drive the golf carts around campus so I was afraid but a little exciting at the possibility. Come to find out, I can't drive one without a license. Why? It's a golf cart! Even I can drive one of those. Never tried but come on! It's like a really big Power Wheels!

I also had psychology which is barely worth mentioning. Boring but seems somewhat easy.


Today was a bitch and a half.

I woke up early for stupid Art History which is going to be SO ANNOYING because it's an upper level art history so I have to write papers and there are only like 12 people in the class so we have to discuss and do group assignments... and it's "special topics" so we are ONLY studying Alter pieces. The most boring topic the teacher could have picked. And I hate that professor so it's twice as bad. This class is going to be nothing but a thorn in my side.

So then I had the nap which produced the craptasic dream I posted last.

When I woke up I went to pick up my paycheck, which I was pretty pleased when I saw how much it was for, and my one text book. Then I went to have lunch with Tara only to have Sam show up. I'm glad she got to catch up with her old friend though. Meh.

3D modeling is not going to be what I had hoped for either. I thought for sure we would be some character modeling but the whole class is going to be on scenery and environments. Which is cool and all, but I want to make a character to put in it!

Aikijutsu is going to be alright. I know more people in it than I thought... It's just getting used to a new style. But it's a Japanese style so I know a lot of the vocab already.


Here's the part that pissed me off. Work. We got to ride in the golf carts which depressed me because I couldn't do anything, I couldn't talk because the mule was so loud, and it looked so super easy to drive them I wanted to try so bad but they wouldn't let me. So I spent 5 hours in the back of a super loud tiny hot vehicle doing nothing. I guess it's cool I'm being paid to sit but I still wish I could drive it. At least just the golf cart. I don't even want to drive the mule.

And Southeastern is in the shit hole this semester. It's hanging on by a thread financially and the president of it is spending money on stupid shit like flat screen tvs for the library that do nothing but show upcoming campus events... they had a dry erase board for that that worked just fine. Also, 3 million on a new track because ours was too small? And getting rid of a parking lot when parking is a crisis already?

This is bullshit! Southeastern, get your act together!

Ok, so I was taking a nap, I'll talk about my first days of classes later, and I had a weird dream. Not like an epicly weird Kimi dream, just a weird Deshi dream.

So in the dream mom told me that Brother was going to do something TERRIBLE so I had to hide in his house somewhere and catch him in the act! So I ninja'd into his house while he and several of his friends were there and I went into his bedroom closet. The house was totally different so don't even actually picture his room. I snuck into the closet, sat down, and pulled some clothes on top of me. I was pretty well hidden until they all came into the bedroom, Dave and his friends, and the clothes started to slip off of me. So, Dave notices and walks over like, "What is that?" He stares at me for a minute and whispers "What the hell are you doing here?" And he's scolding me in whispers so his friends don't notice and telling me he hates me and he wants me to leave. I'm just sitting there sobbing trying to explain to him when I was doing and it was Mom's idea and I was just trying to help him. But he hold me to leave so I get up, crying like a baby, and I run out of his room... only the house was different so while running for an exit I also yell "I don't know where the exit is anymore!" and eventually find it an leave.

Oh, but the fun doesn't stop there!

I get outside and I dunno if I called him or if he was just there but John is magically with me and we're walking together. I assume we were on the way home or something but we got lost. We found a house and decided to go in it for help or shelter. So we're walking around in it for a while before he's like, "I wonder if this place is haunted..." Then a light comes on a man is standing there, he looked pretty normal, and he said that it was. So John starts talking to him about random stuff, I wasn't paying attention to them because I randomly had Harley and Ivy comics. Where did I get them? No idea, but there were mine and I was gunna read them. So I'm reading them out loud in an intense voice when suddenly the lights go out again. I grab John and John calls out for the guy he was talking to but he doesn't answer. So we get freaked out and run for an exit, hearing spooky noises behind us as we run. Only I was freaking out because I dropped a few of the comics and I kept yelling that we needed to go back for them but John just kept dragging me away.

Finally we find an exit and we start to run away from the house. I look back to see about 5 guys standing in front of the house, including the one John was talking to, just waving us goodbye. I stopped and told John that they all looked pretty friendly for ghosts. I yelled to them if they had my comics and the guy John was talking to yelled that I had, and waved them. He put them down and they all walked back inside. So despite John's tugging at my arm to go back, I ran up to the house, grabbed my comics, yelled my thanks, and walked back to John unharmed and pretty pleased.

After that we walked for quite some time, I could tell because I was panting and dragging my feet. So John turns to me and tells me to climb on his back and he would carry me. I protested because he was probably tired too and I didn't want to be added weight. But he insisted and he said he knew where we were. So I did and he brought me up a grassy hill where suddenly, since this whole dream had taken place at night, tons of fireflies (because at this point I was half asleep and had Fireflies by Owl City stuck in my head) flew around us in circles and it was magical and lovely and I woke up, the end!


The moral of this story? Even in my dreams John is polite and I'm obsessed with Harley comics. *shrugs*

And Brother, that was just MEAN. ;~;

Tonight was actually pretty fun! It was Brother's book signing party so I went with sister while mom went with Ms. Peggy.

So I didn't know a lot of people but it got pretty fun when John arrived. Everyone kept interrogating him. Kelly's family, Mom's friend's family, ect. It was pretty funny to watch.

John and I sort of kept to ourselves most of the time. There were a lot of people there, the vast majority of which we didn't know, so we would find places to hide every now and then. Sometimes we would sit with Dana, or play with Amelia when we could manage to steal her away from someone.

Toward the end of the night it got pretty fun. Alexander, who was pretty busy toward the beginning of the night serving drinks for people and earning tips for being the cute little child servant, began playing around with Dana and I so we got to roughhousing. We spent the rest of the night teaching him jems like "Dart in your neck," "awkward starfish," and various other fun ways to annoy people. Twas fun and we were oh so proud of him. John really liked Alexander too and him being there made playing with him more fun. I was really happy he came! He also bought a copy of his book and got Brother to sign it for him. He was pretty touched by the note he wrote in it.

And Dave was in a pretty good mood too. He seemed really happy to see John there also. I think they approve of him.

So in the end the party was really fun! Even mom was raving about how much fun she had and what a pleasure the evening was. It was a great turn out and I think he sold about 25 copies of his book. Success I would say. Good job, Brother. Good job.

Last night was awesome! John and I were supposed to go out with his friends, the ones I went to mechacon with, but they canceled on him. So he asked if I wanted to go out to dinner and a movie. After he told me it was canceled I kind of didn't want to go because I'm lazy but I'm a Yeswoman so I went anyway. We went to eat a Chilis which was delicious. I got to have cheese fries too. We did the 2 for $20 thing they have now. It was so much food we were walking around groaning about it for an hour.

So, in that hour before the movie after we had eaten, he did something that i had forgotten I wanted to do on a date. He took me to the book store so we could sit in the comic book section and read. We found two squishy chairs next to each other and he read Joker's Asylum and I read Batman Hush. Harley didn't play too big of a role in it but it was still pretty interesting and I would like to eventually get it so I can read the whole thing. I told him I would send him the scans Tara gave me of Joker's Asylum.

So we skipped off to the movies, literally, and got there just in time. Gentleman he was, even when I told him I wanted to pay for something so he wouldn't pay for it all, he let me pay for the movie tickets, even though he used his $17 movie pass so I only had to pay like $4 the whole night.

The movie was awesome! I'm so glad I finally got to see Avatar in theatres and in 3D before they stopped showing it. And I recycled my 3D glasses for the first time. lol

We held hands through the whole thing which usually I was uncomfortable with because Zach did it all the time and I hated it but in the beginning it was uncomfortable but after a while I almost forgot. It was nice.

I'm slowly getting more comfortable with all this and he's a real trooper taking it slow. <3

So after the movie we went to Reid's house because his friends actually got together and they told John they wanted to see me. So when I got there Regina and Sarah were more excited about me being there than John. I think I really fit in well in there. Kept accidentally hurting John though. That was a bit unexpected. I hope his arm doesn't bruise...

But it was a great night! I'm really glad I went. :D



Tara Love Tally:
25

John: *dies*
Deshi: o_o ........... *scoots body under bed and whistles innocently*
John: *decays and starts to smell*
Deshi: *sprays air freshener*
John: *rises from the dead to feast on the flesh of the living*
Deshi: ..... *pulls out zombie survival guide and flips through while running*
John: *shuffles down the hallway*
Deshi: *turns on Thriller to distract you and keeps running*
John: *dances*
Deshi: *escapes*
John: well played...
Deshi: Thank you. ^-~
John: np <3

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Uhh... Well, a lot of romantic firsts. Though he was not my first boyfriend or kiss he is a hell of a lot more romantic than Zach! I was a photographer for a wedding. I celebrated a lot of Amelia's firsts. <3 Oh, and I got a job on campus that didn't SUCK. lol Oh, I played D&D for the first time. :D It was AWESOME while it lasted!

2. Did you keep your New Years resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't even remember them so probably no. I never do.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
.... Kelly gave birth right BEFORE 2009 started. Does that count?

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I wasn't too close to Mr. Hershal but I attended his funeral.

5. What countries did you visit?
Do imaginary ones count?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I want to learn to drive and maybe get a better paying job off campus or a lab job so I have less walking around at night. I would also like to eat better and get in better shape. Also, I hope for great things with my relationship with John, as terrifying as a new relationship is to me.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
Probably my birthday. I will never forget how nice Ducky and Sita were for throwing me a mini party in their apartment for me and I loved my villains party! Top notch nerd fun! I loved it!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I got a Judge's Honor award in New Media Sound Design at the art gallery on campus and I got a piece in an art show off campus. That's pretty cool. Though I have to admit I'm more proud of getting John as my boyfriend. <3 Also, I have a job and I'm easing into paying for my own things.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Noooot learning to drive...

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Just normal sicknesses I think. Nothing serious. Narrowly avoided getting Swine Flu.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Probably my renfair dress. SO much money but it makes me feel pretty. :D And also Mom's Kindle.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Ducky and Sita for that birthday of snacks, Arkham Asylum, UP, District 9, and a cake. Also, Tara for being such an amazing friend. I loves you! And John for being so adorkable. :D

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Probably my sister. Nothing particular, just generally being a pain.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Comic books, ren fair, outings with friends, etc.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I have a short term memory so pretty much everything I'm listing happened more recently. Forgive me for that. Anyway, probably my Batman Villains party, watching Amelia grow up, 3D modeling, and dating John. At one point I was pretty excited about weddings after Laken's. I've been planning mine in my head for the first time in my life. I've never been interested in it before.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Uhhh... I guess I'm on a Boat. It will always remind me of partoling the campus with Evan and Aeriel. Or Night of the Living Christ. For same reasons plus John introduced it to me.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sad I haven't been able to hang out with friends recently because of my campus police job and happy because I just got back from visiting them. Because I usually don't get to see them, when I DO it's even more special. :D
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter. Especially right now during the holidays. WAY too many sweets. lol

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Same as Bonnie, really. Practicing driving, reading, add working out, and studying.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Basic procrastination and being lazy. So much I should have been doing but never did.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With John and his family, and then with my own family. :D We all had such a good time.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Not love yet, but I did find a prime candidate.

23. How many one night stands?
Ew.

24. What was your favorite TV program(s)?
Dexter, The Big Bang Theory, Bones, Castle, Batman the Animated Series, Dollhouse... and I guess that's it.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Not that I can recall...

26. What was the best book you read?
Uhhh.... Red Planet Noir?

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Scaffer the Darklord.

28. What did you want and get?
A boyfriend and a decent job. Also, a ren fair costume.

29. What did you want and not get?
A driver's license and an apartment.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Princess and the Frog was awesome. Inglorious Basterds, UP, 9, Paranormal Activity, Stranger than Fiction, Zombieland, ect. It was a great year for movies if nothing else.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Had a delightful night at Ducky and Sita's. :D The day AFTER my birthday I had a small Batman Villains party where we all dressed as villains and played silly party games. <3

32. What one thing would have made your year more satisfying?
Confidence.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
A little better, I guess. I got nicer clothes over the summer and I've been donating some clothes. I also got a very nice black dress so I guess it has improved a lot.

34. What kept you sane?
friends and the promise of upcoming holidays.

35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most?
Alan Tudyk... and Jim Parsons. Such a great actor.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Politics isn't my thing.

37. Who did you miss?
Same people I missed every other year before.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Ethan. :D He's a delightful guy. Also Evan, whom I work with and the other guys down at the station.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
I'm entitled to have things go my way as well. I have to start speaking up and telling people how I feel.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"If anyone could make me a better person you could. All I gotta say is I must have done something good. Came along one day and you rearranged my life. All I gotta say is I must have done something right. I must have done something right." Relient K
Friends and family are awesome. :D

Thursday sister brought me over to Tara-sama's so that I could stay at her apartment for a few days. I was really excited about seeing my friends. As soon as I got there we hung out and ate a delicious breakfast of toast with lemon curd and chocolate chai tea! I actually got to use my ceramic cup for chocolate chai like I always wanted! Tara is a wish granter!

We were supposed to go out with Nan that day for her birthday but she was sick and couldn't go out. Poor dear. So we decided to go run Tara's errands... only on the way we noticed all the girls were home so we ran back and got my Christmas gifts for them and went to visit.

Molly got me my Rock, paper, scissors, lizard, Spock shirt I wanted so I changed right there. It fit me really well and I was overjoyed! Bonnie said she would paint me a shirt too! :D

So we ended up hanging out there for so long we decided to screw the errands and go see a movie. We called up Aeriel, got Bonnie and Greggory into it, and went off to see Sherlock Holmes.

Despite the fact that the two are not supposed to be sexy, it really helped that they were. <3 And the Bromance in that movie was delightful.

And that's all I will say for those who have not seen it. Also, Kimi, if you're reading this... there is a book by Ransom Riggs. It's all about how to be like Sherlock Holmes down to "making an entrance" and "getting rid of tracks" ect. It seems like a really awesome read! You should look into it.


After the movie John came over and we headed to Aeriel's for her New Year's party. we just hung out for several hours eating, some drinking, and being awesome. Then we played Pictionary which was fun for me because since we had an odd number of people when we divided it between girls and guys we had one extra girl. So I decided to play for both teams, switching from guys to girls each turn. So to make it more interesting I would pretend to be a guy on the guy's team and be extra girly on the girl team. Even down to yelling at John for being gay every time he talked sweetly to me or tried to touch or hug me. Made me smile. lol

I even got my first kiss at midnight. And John gave me the thing he order for me on ebay. It's a clock/jewelry box with Harley on it. :D It's awesome! I have it right next to my bed and while the ticking is a little annoying it's still pretty awesome. He's a keeper. <3

So at about 1:00 we all went our separate ways and Tara and I went home.

The next day, her couch is really comfy btw, we went to do her errands such as pay her bills, get a book from Books a Million, and visit Nan. Visiting Nan is always nice. <3

I got two books at Books a Million. I got I <3 Geeks and Yokai attack. I <3 Geeks is like a girl's guide to dating a geek which being a geek myself I knew but I decided it was an interesting read and a nice conversation starter. Yokai Attack is a guide to surviving a Japanese monster attack which is perfect for me! It's got a guide to a ton of Japanese monsters with illustrations, descriptions, weaknesses, ect. I had to get it!

Tara and I even looked at this book which was made to look like one of those teen girly magazines but instead of really hot guy profiles it was geeky men with their profiles. We flipped through voicing our thoughts on each guy in it. I felt girly and geeky at the same time. It was so odd.

We headed back to the apartment and invited Bonnie over to watch The Big Bang Theory season 2 with us which neither of them had seen before so that was a delight. They had a blast and since I love watching people's reactions to my favorite shows it was especially fun since their reactions were so animated!

After we headed over to Bonnie's to see Molly and Lina and watch Heroes with them. I hadn't see Heroes season 1 in so long so it was nice to see it again. :D

I've also decided to keep a running total of how many times I tell Tara I love her this year.

Oh! And Bonnie finished my shirt! It was actually exactly what I was hoping she would paint on it and it was a design I wanted on a shirt very badly! It was that one image of Harley's mask, eyes, and lips on just a white background. I love it! I can't wait to wear it!


Today was a delight! I woke up and Tara and I watched more of The Big Bang Theory until mom came to pick me up. Then the two of us went to eat at Applebee's where we saw Wade. I had no idea he worked there. Pleasant surprise! :D

We went all the way home, picked up the curtains Kelly needed for Amelia's room from the house, and brought them over to her. Kelly is sick and tomorrow is Amelia's birthday party. Poor dear. We offered to help out but she refused.

Then we ran to Books a Million to see if I could find a book for brother's birthday which is also tomorrow but I couldn't find what I was looking for. However, I did end up buying two more books for myself which oddly enough was NOT how I was originally planning to spend my Christmas money from Dad. Books? How out of character of me. Anyway, I bought the Zombie Survival Guide which I was WELL overdue for owning. And a guide for surviving worst-case-scenarios like what to do when your car is careening off the edge of a cliff. Seems like a pretty epic read. I hope I enjoy.

So we got home finally and mom taught me how to cook supper. We made breaded pork chops, mac and cheese, corn, biscuits, and lemon cupcakes with lemon icing. DELICIOUS!

I'm on chapter three of I <3 geeks and I find it describes me relatively well. At least my social awkwardness. I also find it just the slightest bit insulting but that's only because it's written for girls who aren't accustomed to geeks or their ways. Oh well. They mean no harm. They actually aim to help.

Okie dokie. Night all!

Tara Love Tally:
24

So I watched all of The Big Bang Theory season 2, watched UP, and I started on Dexter so I'm going through my Christmas gift viewing.

Dad gave me $80 for Christmas so I'll probably blow that on geeky t-shirts because I need to nerdify my wardrobe. None of my t-shirts are form fitting. They are all men's shirts. Or get some dresses from modcloth. Those dresses are nice. :D Been getting rid of some old clothes or stuff that no longer fits me also. Or stuff I just don't like anymore. Funny how girls are. No matter how much clothes you have you never think it's enough. Oh well.

John's sister posted the pictures from Christmas on facebook and I've been reading the comments his family and friends were making about how much they like me and how I fit in. Made me smile in the heart. <:D3 ... Get it? It's a smile in a heart.

Anyway, I'm going over to Tara's tomorrow morning. It's Nan's birthday, which I feel bad I didn't have time to get her anything, and then I think Aeriel is having a get together at her house or something for New Year's. Then I'm going home Saturday. So I get to spend the night and some time with my friends! I finally get to give them their gifts. I'm excited to see their faces when they open them!

I went through my costume trunk again to add some stuff to it and to find my bobbie. I'm fairly satisfied with my collection so far.

I have:
1 pair of red fairy wings and matching skirt
1 plastic shield, sword, and axe
1 goofy hat
1 clown hat and matching oversized tie
1 pair of long white fancy gloves
2 fleece kitty hats - white/grey
1 horse head on a stick
1 green and black witches hat
1 whoopee cushion
1 fuzzy pink boa
1 yellow hawaiian lei
2 toy traffic cones
1 construction worker hat
1 butterfly net
1 bug collector's box
1 safari hat
1 inflatable pirate sword
1 fireman hat
2 toy skulls
1 pokeball
1 umbrella hat
1 black eye mask
1 rolling pin
1 magic wand
1 bertie bott's every flavor beans bag
1 toy chick
1 tall cowboy hat
1 V mask
1 graduation hat
2 aprons - blue/pink
2 white chef hats
1 mickey mouse hat
1 puffy renfair hat
1 FBI action playset - badge/gun/stick/radio/gun holster
1 winter cap
1 wooden hanger (for playing captain hook <3)
1 pair of harry potter goggles
1 harry potter flying key
1 party in a box set - party hat/noise maker/candle/ribbon/happy birthday sign
1 ninja forehead protector
1 tiny Simpsons backpack for a doll
1 tiny soccer mug
1 black bandit hat
1 glasses case with real pair of glasses
2 vacation hats - blue/pirate print
MANY plastic gold coins
MANY marbles
1 graduation sash
1 jumprope
1 chinese finger trap
1 Casting Stones game
1 wizard's chess set
1 side walk painting set
1 chuck-a-duck gun complete with 3 ducks
1 pair of 3D glasses
1 british police hat

Extras that are too fragile or big for the trunk
2 teapots - kitty/piggy
1 japanese cone hat
1 pair of black angel wings with matching halo
1 GIANT japanese fan
1 jedi costume
1 black cape
1 trick or treating pumpkin lamp

Extras currently used for decorating my room
1 batman mask
1 rubber bat
1 fake diamond
1 extra whoopee cushion
1 set of chattering teeth
1 green lightsaber


So how am I doing so far and what else should I get? :D

So today was my family Christmas. We got up at about 10:30 and began cooking and cleaning. Not long after, John arrived and helped us do random things like try and fold out the table, take out the trash, and make those ritz candy things.

Larry arrived next.

Then Brother, Kelly, and Amelia arrived. I was pretty disappointed that Alexander wasn't there.

Brother was pretty awesome though. He got a gun for Christmas and when he remembered John was going to be here he brought it. Classic big brother. <3

So we socialized for a while. Played a little wii party games 2, and then opened gifts. My gift was on back order but I was fine with that because I got to help Amelia open her gifts! Honored! Larry pissed us off though. He didn't get mom anything. Bastard. He's on thin ice and he's really upsetting mom. I cannot have that....

Amelia was ADORABLE as always. And Funky Town always prevails! She had fun playing with the pet gate. I dunno what it was about it but she loved to hold the bars and stand up looking through it. I got lots of pictures of her "in jail"

Kelly was actually civil today. She only asked one awkward question all day. I was very proud of her! John lucked out!

They all seemed to like him. I know mom said she did. He talked nerd with Davey so I know he likes him. He's not a drug dealer so I think Kelly approves. lol He's just nice and funny. He even took up for Dana once when we were talking so I think Dana likes him too.

He's clicking. That's a good sign.

After opening gifts we ate dinner which was AWESOME because it was roast and rice and gravy. YUM.

Then John proclaimed being undefeated at Wii tennis so my brother challenged him to a game. He dominated. So then I played. Then my sister... or was it mom? Well then Larry played. John obliterated us all.

More socializing and then everyone left one by one. Though when John left I finally got to kiss him on the lips. Nothing complex. Just a nice peck on the lips. It was nice though. :D


So I had a great family gathering. Mom loves her wii, I got to kiss John, and family approves. Seems like a pretty Win day!

Christmas is awesome so far. Well, it could be better but this is as good as it gets.

The reason it could be better is because of Sister's attitude. She's a total killjoy and a scrooge. How can you hate Christmas music?? I just don't understand her.

Anyway, we woke up at 6 in the morning and opened presents as is family tradition.

I got:
+ UP from Dana
+ A new To Become an Artist poster. Like the one my brother bought me when I was little but got ruined. It's smaller but now it will fit better on my door. :D
+ Dexter season 1
+ The Big Bang Theory season 2
+ A spiffy new hat that makes me look like a flapper
+ A new Willow Tree figurine
+ And a ORIGINAL LEGO HARLEY QUINN! :D Complete with Hammer! Kickass!

So it's going alright today. We had gumbo with Larry since he was spending Christmas alone mom had the heart to invite him over.

btw, Stranger Than Fiction was AWESOME. :D I really loved it.

Has the holiday just begun? It feels like it's been around forever and yet it feels like it just started. I'm disoriented with the time already!

I've been having a great time with my family so far this holiday. Since Mom bought the witches ball at the ren fair there have been a lot less fights in our house. Proof that it really does trap evil. ;)

My friends are planning Christmas for Wednesday but I'm not sure if I will be able to make it. Christmas with John's family is Thursday, then Christmas, then our family Christmas on Saturday. That would be four Christmases in a row! But Mom has agreed to dropping me off Tuesday night and picking me up Wednesday night but I would hate to have her do that. She's done so much already. All those car trips...

But anyway. John called tonight and asked me if I wanted to go to see a movie with our friends in Hammond tomorrow so I'm all excited. Not sure if I should bring the gifts for them just in case I can't make it Wednesday. Is John invited Wednesday? Then a ride would be easier but he probably has to work...

I bought a new outfit to wear to John's house for Christmas. Black jeans, a red and black stripped sweater, and red and black striped knee high socks. It looks awesome and I feel like Harley! <3

We made Sister's MedVance ornament today. It looks much better than our SLU or LSU ornaments. Now we're jealous. lol

I also made Larry's ornament from sculpy. It came out pretty good even if mom and I did drop it on the way to the oven to bake it. Oppsy.

It's feeling a little bit more like Christmas now. We listened to Christmas music and made ornaments. We're going to be making candy soon so that should be fun. :D Can't wait! I like it when it FEELS like Christmas. Then I really get into it. Mom figures it's not cold enough to feel like Christmas yet. Oh well. I hope it gets just a little colder. I don't like the cold but if it helps the mood that would be delightful. <3

Off to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince for the first time!

Yesterday was pretty fun! Eileen was bored and had to go shopping so she took me with her. We went to the Party Store then Target. While we were there I told her I was going to see The Princess and the Frog with Tara and the others. She said she wanted to come too. So after we left Target we got our tickets early and then went to McDonald's and sat there until it was about time for the movie. A little before we were to leave for the movie, we decided to buy some candy and drinks to smuggle into the movie so we stopped at Walgreens and bought a bunch of candy.

Then came movie time! Bonnie and Molly came too, as well as Kaci. However the theatre we were in ran out of seats so Kaci just went home. ;~;

Tara was adorable though. She had a little tiara and jewelry with a little plush frog. She's so cute.

So the movie was AMAZING! I will give no spoilers here. But there were many weepy eyes. I almost cried. It was sad but SUCH a good movie. We loved the Louisiana jokes. It was a great night. :D

After that Eileen and I went back to the dorms but she told me she had never seen Enchanted so I brought it over to her room and we watched it. Disney princess double feature! :D



Today... however... was HORRIBLE.

I had to work graduation. I woke up at 6:20 and got ready. We met down at the station and had a meeting and such. I had to take off my jacket and put on a rain coat because I would be outside for several hours. So I get out there and it's freezing, and raining, and windy, and I have to help direct traffic which I don't know how to do, and people are rude and impatient, and I wanted to SCREAM. It was terrible. Out in the freezing rain....

So I got back to the dorm and took a HOT bath and a nap.

BLEH.

For finals week it's been pretty good. :D Not having to constantly be somewhere was a big relief.

Sunday I brought the Super Nintendo to school as a stress relief aid for Kit and I. I invited John and Ethan over to play as well so we took turns, Ethan and Kit as Luigi and John and I as Mario. In the end it was just John and I playing because they sucked at it. But it was still one of the most fun nights I've had in a very long time! I miss hanging out with friends.

I didn't have any finals Monday so I just hung out and studied a bit. But mainly just did nothing. I actually don't remember what I did Monday. Anyone remember? o_o

Tuesday I had Biology and Latin which were pretty easy. Biology I wasn't so sure about but I got a B so I must have done alright. Latin was easy but the translation took me longer than I thought it would. I just got so bored and brain fried halfway through I just decided to just and daydream for a little while before continuing.

Wednesday I had 3D Modeling and Sculpture. 3D modeling was cool. We played our animations for the class to critique. After mine played the whole class started commenting on the actual moves in the chess game rather than critiquing my animation. One guy said that we should probably be commenting on my work. Another guy said that it says something that we unconsciously accepted the chess game as an actual event and commented on that rather than talking about the animating itself. So I think it went well despite the fact my teacher gave me a B. Oh well.

Sculpture was fine. We just showed up and cleaned. He picked 4 girls, myself included, who had to sort the scrap wood into piles of keep, throw away, and small little blocks of wood for a group of visiting children to make sculptures from.

After that I asked John for a ride to the bank to deposit my paycheck. $500. I was very happy with it. Anyway, he, Ethan, and I all rode to the bank but it was closed so we went to Walmart because Ethan had to go anyway. I cashed my check there and got a ring from the Silver Pyramid because I don't need no MAN to buy me a ring.

Though I have realized... everytime I get into a relationship I buy or somehow obtain a new ring... Craig - Graduation Ring. Zach - Butterfly Ring. John - Flower Ring.

And somehow, after we break up, I always misplace the ring obtained in that relationship. Lost the graduation ring outside my grandmother's house, just recently lost the butterfly ring... All I can say is, I can't break up with John because I like this ring. lol

Thursday I took the day off of work so Kit and I decided after my final we would have a fun night together before the holidays. I was super excited about it.

My ceramics final was awesome. He just walked up to me, said I had done everything he had asked of me an that he was giving me an A. I was very excited! He said "You actually made the 5 pound pitchers." Shocked, I said "Wasn't I supposed to?" And he said "Those are REALLY hard. And yours came out REALLY nice!"

So I was very happy for a while. :D

I got back to the dorm, ready to start our happy fun movie night.... and Kit was asleep. So much for fun.

I went to Cayman with John and Ethan.

OH! I gotta tell ya! The other day John and I went eat dinner at Cayman. He asked where I wanted to sit so I said "The Moon." He laughed and then asked where I really wanted to sit. I said it again with a very serious face, saying that I was curious to see what he would designate the moon. When I sat down at the table with him he had covered it with napkins to make it white like the moon, he named the napkin holder the 'sea of tranquility,' and the salt and pepper shakers where the moon landing site. It was adorkable. <3

Anyway! So after Cayman with John and Ethan we went back to Ethan's dorm and hung out for an hour. HILARITY ensued. They are so funny when they are together.

Then I went back to my dorm and watched Revenge of the Nerds by myself. Boring.

BTW, Ethan is an awesome artist. :D


I'm going to see The Princess and the Frog tonight with Tara. :D Super excited about that! I have been getting to hang out with my friends a little bit more lately so when I do it's really awesome for me. <3



John is so different from Zach. He was so clingy and wanted to do something with me every minute. I think John is a lot more my speed. He's taking it really slow with no pressure at all. It's like having a good friend just with longer, nicer, hugs and more adorable interactions. :D Like we're sims who haven't gotten high enough on the relationship meter to unlock certain moves yet.

That comparison just made me a little more nerdy and yet a little bit more sad of an individual. XD

So my first day in a relationship was ok. I kept getting comments from people about the status update which was nice and expected but still a little... Not embarrassing but... You know, it got a reaction from me. I get slightly uncomfortable when relationships are brought up when I am involved. I like talking about it and I like the attention but there is always this unexplainable discomfort about it. I'm nervous it's going to keep me from really liking John more now that we are in a relationship. I tend to get really uncomfortable once the relationship status is slapped on.

It's going to be weird when we get to a point beyond goodbye HUGS.


Anyway. I didn't really get to see him that much that day. I stopped by with Evan for a bit. We warmed up, discussed our dislike for Uma Thurman, ect.


Today I got to see him for a bit longer with Aeriel there. We saw the photos he printed for class of scary locations.

We've been texting each other a lot too. Especially while I'm at work.


I've changed him to Mistah J on my phone and he changed me to Harley on his. <3

So today was a very important day. :D

John and I went to the movies as we planned. A Christmas Carol. But unlike how I planned I chickened out in asking him to date me BEFORE the movie. Oh well.

We got there and we were the ONLY people in the theatre. We were so excited to have our own private viewing! Seriously! The ONLY ones there! I guess since it was a week day and all and pretty late. 9:30. Anyway.

So we looked up and noticed half the screen was blue. Confused, I turned around to the projector booth and yelled. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYE! 'mere." Like Gabriel Iglesias. So then we proceeded to shout various things to try and get his attention and tell him the screen was blue. Well, I random slipped into a black woman voice and started shouting things like "OH HEEEEELL NO! I didn't pay $15 dollars just to see a blue screen. You bettah get your crackah ass, pimply face, self to that projector and fix this shit! I gotta get mah movie on!" And such to that likeness. Randomly, as the previews started playing the blue went away and we heard a voice yell from the projector room, "Enjoy the movie!"

We awkwardly responded with our thanks, knowing he must have heard all of that.

Another couple eventually showed up and spoiled our fun.

So the movie was AMAZING! It looked so real and the 3D was awesome! We kept trying to catch snow on our tongues, we put our arms out for flying parts, and joked about how high all the ghosts were.

During the really cold scenes I pretended to be cold and he tried to warm me up. :D

Finally we left and shouted our thanks once more to the projector guy.


I wanted to tell him as we were leaving the theatre but then there was that awkward ride home to look forward to so I waited.

We rode home to Shaffer the Darklord and Dr. Horrible. Duets FTW. <3

And then came the awkward goodbye at my dorm. We stood there for a full minute just staring at each other saying, "... So..... yep..." and such. All the while me trying to get the courage to say I liked him. Finally he broke the silence with, "Hey, can I ask you something?"

"Yes?" I said too eagerly.

"Will you go out with me?"

"YES!" :D

"Wow. That took a long time for me to ask."

"I know, right?"

"I'm sorry."

"Nono! I couldn't do it either!"

So we hugged, I turned to my door, and asked that age old question...

"Epic Gunfight?"

"You know it."


Short-lived. We ran out of ammo... But next time... NEXT TIME....

Yes....

So like, this week has been ok. It's gone up and down all over the place so I guess I could say it's balanced itself out.

I'm doing really well on my sculpture and 3D modeling assignments. My teachers are really impressed.

Now, I'm impressed Harley came out so well in my sculpture class. Some of her head broke off but I managed to bake it all together and glue the pieces back on. It should be fine. I'm really paranoid she's going to fall forward and break more but she has been standing for hours on her own. As long as nothing shakes her I think she should do fine.

My 3D Modeling assignment is to make my 3D chess board. I'm done with the pieces and board. All I have to do now is animate it. I'm pretty excited. Edward seems pleased with what I have so far. :D I'm glad. He didn't seem to think I could do it. I sure showed him. MWAHAHAHAA!

Football games are a poo and a half. It's been so cold this week so work has been very uncomfortable. If Aeriel hadn't let me borrow her gloves I don't think I would have made it. I've had to work two games so far, the Saturday before last and last Thursday. First game I didn't even get to watch which was fine with me but at least the second time it gave me something to look at while I was bored out of my mind.


So today was the critique for my Harley figure. Everyone really liked it. Wasn't the best or most praised in the class but it was still probably one of the top 5. Maybe even top 3. I was pretty pleased. Her foot broke off shortly after though. I glued it back on but it's a little off. I'll fix it again later. It was pretty funny though. I started out my critique saying that Harley Quinn was abused by the Joker a lot. He then asked me if I think of myself as an abused girl and if I identify and see myself as Harley. Despite the fact that I do act like Harley like you all know, I totally acted like he was crazy and told him no, I don't see myself as her, I just like the basis for her character concept. I wasn't going to trap myself in a corner so he can yell at me again. Bleh.

I also started animating my chess set. I'm not happy with how slow the pieces are moving. I'll have to amp up the speed. I looked up a short game on youtube and I'm recreating that. Hopefully it will look cooler with lighting and camera angles.

I had a lot of fun with Mom this weekend. :D

Last night was awesome. I got a call from Hat John saying that he had the first few episodes of Dexter season 3 so he invited me over to watch. Half way through the first episode he commented that he loves how we can never watched movies together because we end up talking through the whole thing. Hadn't even realized how much we missed. We still got the just of it though. We had snacks and made jokes. It was just a good time. <3

I'm so glad this is a short week. I don't feel like working.

I want tomorrow off so I can go to the movies with my friends. SIGH.



I think I'm going to tell John I like him soon....